“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before—more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.” - Charles Dickens (Great Expectations) i was editing some random pics for a friend…when i ran across this pic of mine that i had from 2011. in it i was crying and for some reason seeing the picture helped me personally. there are times when all u can do is cry, sometimes words aren’t enough and you have to let it out. i can remember exactly how i was feeling when i look at this picture and what was happening in my life that was causing so much pain… i have weird habits like taking pics when i’m hurt…but seeing where i was then to now…i’m so thankful i let myself cry and go through the process of dealing with life. i put the quote on my head because it’s a line from Great Expectations that Charles Dickens wrote that’s always stayed with me that’s a constant reminder that it’s OKAY to express how i feel through tears. i know this is kinda a vulnerable pic, but it’s all good. plus if you know me, i’m pretty sure you’ve seen me cry at some point  i hope whatever anyone is going through they realize they are never alone & life does get better. 

“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before—more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.” - Charles Dickens (Great Expectations) 

i was editing some random pics for a friend…when i ran across this pic of mine that i had from 2011. in it i was crying and for some reason seeing the picture helped me personally. there are times when all u can do is cry, sometimes words aren’t enough and you have to let it out. i can remember exactly how i was feeling when i look at this picture and what was happening in my life that was causing so much pain… i have weird habits like taking pics when i’m hurt…but seeing where i was then to now…i’m so thankful i let myself cry and go through the process of dealing with life. i put the quote on my head because it’s a line from Great Expectations that Charles Dickens wrote that’s always stayed with me that’s a constant reminder that it’s OKAY to express how i feel through tears. 

i know this is kinda a vulnerable pic, but it’s all good. plus if you know me, i’m pretty sure you’ve seen me cry at some point  i hope whatever anyone is going through they realize they are never alone & life does get better. 

I edit photos…but basic editing… just to make the picture pop some. here’s one i did of my face, just a random pic i had of my makeup. the one of the right is unedited..obviously lol…but just adding a few touches here and there u take an ordinary pic and make it look pretty awesome. :) i love creativity and simplicity. i love taking something and making it extra special. 

I edit photos…but basic editing… just to make the picture pop some. here’s one i did of my face, just a random pic i had of my makeup. the one of the right is unedited..obviously lol…but just adding a few touches here and there u take an ordinary pic and make it look pretty awesome. :) i love creativity and simplicity. i love taking something and making it extra special. 

I took this really cool up close picture of my eye…  I love brown eyes! Pretty awesome all the colors in there if the eyes are the windows to the soul I have some beautiful Windows :)

I took this really cool up close picture of my eye… I love brown eyes! Pretty awesome all the colors in there if the eyes are the windows to the soul I have some beautiful Windows :)

Haven’t been able to just rest like a normal person lately. So I got my trusty sketch book out and started doodling…. I never found the letter P to be very interesting… Which is odd seeing as my name starts with it. But I decided to embrace it and just draw draw draw. This is inspired by the beautiful henna designs I’ve done in the past… It’s still a work in progress but working on it for 2 1/2 hours is enough for me for today… Who knows if I’ll ever finish it, but still looks lovely to me :)

Haven’t been able to just rest like a normal person lately. So I got my trusty sketch book out and started doodling…. I never found the letter P to be very interesting… Which is odd seeing as my name starts with it. But I decided to embrace it and just draw draw draw. This is inspired by the beautiful henna designs I’ve done in the past… It’s still a work in progress but working on it for 2 1/2 hours is enough for me for today… Who knows if I’ll ever finish it, but still looks lovely to me :)

I seriously owe these to my dude…sometimes i am such an asshole to him. sometimes he deserves it, but i should still learn to be more patient and realize not everyone is like me ;) hey, i’m still trying to get the hang of this whole ‘other person in my life’ thing. 

but regardless no matter how much of an asshole you may be at times, EVERYONE can gather up enough strength to apologize if you truly care for someone, always.  & if they aren’t more important than your pride, you might want to rethink being in a relationship to begin with. 

I seriously owe these to my dude…sometimes i am such an asshole to him. sometimes he deserves it, but i should still learn to be more patient and realize not everyone is like me ;) hey, i’m still trying to get the hang of this whole ‘other person in my life’ thing. 

but regardless no matter how much of an asshole you may be at times, EVERYONE can gather up enough strength to apologize if you truly care for someone, always.  & if they aren’t more important than your pride, you might want to rethink being in a relationship to begin with. 

everyone has SOMETHING to be happy about…it may be a minimal thing or it may mean the world to you, but regardless it’s amazing to u so it’s amazing to me and that makes me happy. 

everyone has SOMETHING to be happy about…it may be a minimal thing or it may mean the world to you, but regardless it’s amazing to u so it’s amazing to me and that makes me happy. 

my anchor ring is awesomeee….now if i could only find it :l this was posted in memory of something i loved & lost boooo. 

my anchor ring is awesomeee….now if i could only find it :l this was posted in memory of something i loved & lost boooo. 

i’m a turd :) i spend time taking pictures of myself that try to make me smile ‘naturally’ or just be silly….a dumb selfie, but this is what i post, sure there were cuter or prettier ones, but this is like ”move the fuck on and take a pic” so i’m settled :) me likey, i’m finished now. 

i’m a turd :) i spend time taking pictures of myself that try to make me smile ‘naturally’ or just be silly….a dumb selfie, but this is what i post, sure there were cuter or prettier ones, but this is like ”move the fuck on and take a pic” so i’m settled :) me likey, i’m finished now. 

My son with some special effects I did on him last year at some point…he loves it when I do the looks but then gets weirded out when he sees it. Creativity comes in different forms, this just happens to be on my level of fun things to do :) 

My son with some special effects I did on him last year at some point…he loves it when I do the looks but then gets weirded out when he sees it. Creativity comes in different forms, this just happens to be on my level of fun things to do :) 

So just some random stuff in my room that all means something to me .  Everything has its own personal story behind it.  Love gained and love lost,  my son’s memories,  all meshed together to create the little things that are now mine.  I can’t erase my past but I can look forward to the future.  Mmhmm. 

So just some random stuff in my room that all means something to me .  Everything has its own personal story behind it.  Love gained and love lost,  my son’s memories,  all meshed together to create the little things that are now mine.  I can’t erase my past but I can look forward to the future.  Mmhmm. 

I dont know if I should be offended when someone tells me they got tested after we had sex or relieved because they are responsible….

i’m leaning more towards the second part…hmmm.

— PattyCakes (me)
I saw the future, I did…and in it…I was alive.

Neil Hilborn 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xUEg2WxGqQ

this is his entire reading…it’s amazing and the last line is what just made sense. beautiful are the words of someone who’s been through it. 

It is the broken
the shattered inside of us
that makes us perfect.
Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

Sometimes the most beautiful things are broken….. That’s me being an optimist….. Me usually I say… Unless it’s mine or a video game I don’t care. So……… Yep. Love when artistic people can make things seem to beautiful.

Reblogged from Tyler Knott

My Thoughts On Life…

Sometimes trying to keep track of my life isn’t as easy as it seems…  Not because it’s that damn interesting but because sometimes I’m preoccupied with the same people and things that mean something to me. 

There are times I think I’m a boring person but when I step back and look at my life I realize I’m far from ordinary and boring.  Sometimes it’s not realizing how important you are to everyone else,  but realizing how important you are to yourself that should really mean something.  Everyone has moments when they think they’re boring and so uninteresting that even a rock has more personality than they do,  but life is different for everyone… The things I consider small could be the same thing others worry over… And sometimes big moments in someone else’s  life can just be another something to me.  This doesn’t make it uninteresting or boring but it makes it life. 

Enjoy the person you are… Embrace who you are,  fully and completely.  Everyone has their skeletons in their closets don’t judge others based off of your experiences… See people how you would like to be seen… 

Life is beautiful embrace it and enjoy it. 

life!!!!! hmmm…and wtf @ the same time… yep. :)

sometimes all someone wants is someone to get them like they get you. and sometimes it takes lots of wrong steps to step back into right ones. no matter how much i may think of someone, life is life and i’m happy. not completely, but thoroughly, if that makes any sense :) fuck people who have no idea of who i am, fuck people who try to force decisions on me, fuck people who have no idea of who i am, but assume they know me based off of their opinions. life is beautiful, mistakes & all. i’ll see that fully one day, but until then i’m smiling because at times life is shitty and sucks ass, i still have reasons to smile. 

p e r i o d :)